turning point

I turned my back
And felt the need for someone to call me
To bellow that I should not leave
That I should stay
But again, I was wrong

There is no one
No one who would make me feel missed
No one I will leave miserable
Miserable in missing me

Before I move on
I got one last question
Were you miserable without me?
Or you are at the moment
Later on, you got your life back
When I who turned my back on you
Kept looking back
Wondering if I made you miserable enough
To tell you
I loved you
Even if I said goodbye
And to admit
Goodbye was not goodbye
Because I love you still
Perhaps, forever
Even if the same love
Never gets back